I think today was horrible. It really was.
And i know i just did a whole big thing about praising. And i still am so thankful for everything i wrote yesterday, so that still very much stands. But ok, like. Today i go to school, and its great. I made cookies for this kid cause it was his birthday, and like i go to second hour and its all dandy and peachy.
And, i kinda like this boy and i was gonna ask him to come to church, and i thought he kinda liked me too.
APPARENTLY NOT! Homecoming is coming up, and i found out he asked another girl, lol, thats... Fun? But than i thought about it. And i suppose its good cause if he's happy and she's happy than bam! It just works. Its still annoying though, Lindsey's not like this.. Ever, i never care about stupid stuff like this. And it made me think about a whole lot of stuff. About things like the eating stuff, and anyone who reads this should know, I had an eating disorder for a while. And i still sometimes struggle with it, but its goten 2345657 times better, and that word looks like its spelt wrong and now its going to bother me.. But anyways, i just get so stressed about everything, and i was stressed about this homecoming thing. So i did what i do whenever i freak out, i took out my ipod and i listened to Paramore and Underoath. And listening to "My Heart" by Paramore, really made me think about just like, everything..
There's this one part in the song, and its my favorite and it goes "This heart, it beats, beats for only You.. My heart is Yours"
And hearing that, made me just stop stressing about stupid stuff like that, cause i don't really care who i go to homecoming with. Or anything like that, because God has it under control. And i don't need to worry about this because i have other people who can worry for me, and know that God will do with my life, what he pleases.
So yeah, today did have some pretty crappy parts, but i love it when things like this happen.
I feel muh better now, thank you for reading, if you did!
Peace out.
